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Depression by dino12345610, literature

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Depression

Depression is writing on the wall too smuged to make out but clear to those around you. Blurred lines and hazy sunsets as you sit adrift on a sea of misunderstanding. Food so beautiful yet ash in your mouth a dream of calm skies awash with the blood of ignorance. Depression is a disguised lover a rose painted in blood with thorns so soft your skin is torn to ribbons that you mistake for beauty. It's words that speak of acceptance twisted into hate so thick you're drowning. The world a shattered prism with rainbow distorted, you know the true image but can't see past the barren wasteland of the world you deserve. For what else could you deserv

Twelve Days in a Nerd's Christmas by dino12345610, literature

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Twelve Days in a Nerd's Christmas

On the first day of Christmas my lover gave to me, an xbox right under the tree. On the second day of Christmas my lover gave to me, two charged controllers and an xbox right under the tree. On the third day of Christmas my lover gave to me, three games to choose from, two charged controllers, and an xbox right under the tree. On the fourth day of Christmas my lover gave to me, four swords a clanging, three games to choose from, two charged controllers, and an xbox right under the tree. On the fifth day of Christmas my lover gave to me, FIVE GOLDEN GUNS, four swords a clanging, three games to choose from, two charged controllers, and

Tattered by dino12345610, literature

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Tattered

This was long decided Before I was involved But you point the finger Blaming me for the dissolve You pushed him away hard While not realizing it to be Anger filled your every thought Hiding what you should see It is hard to heal, I know But you will see in time He will still care for you For friendship he will climb If I get too close to you I'm sure you'll take a swing But I do so wish I could help Tend to your tattered wing I'll help you, by helping him It'll be okay, I know it You'll feel better after awhile And you won't try to hit Break ups are hard for everyone But we deal with it in different ways Take a breath an

Gone by dino12345610, literature

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Gone

Sweetest guy you'll ever meet But I went and trampled it under my feet Distance sucks and so does time Screwing over feelings should be a crime Why did I choose to deny The only love that didn't have me cry? Curl into a ball and let it rain Maybe tears will hide my pain We'll be friends like we were before Never will we close that door Maybe chances will realign Maybe fate will leave a sign Until then I'll drown in life But which end do I hold the knife? Focus on all things going on round In my ball I'm safe and sound I'll be okay just give me a sec My heart just has to make the trek I won't be down for too very long Just g

Uncertainty by dino12345610, literature

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Uncertainty

I can't let go But I shouldn't hold on Seems that time has shriveled Soon it'll be gone I can't think forever I need to decide I wish I could stop Wish I could stem the tide I don't let go So self-centered am I If I did let go You'd just ask why I don't have an answer I never possessed it But holding on? I'm so full of shit I feel unimportant Despite your charms I should be there Should be in your arms But I can't do it I can't be there The distance immense Leaves me grasping air Even if you could You don't hold me so That's why I'm debating Should I stay or go? I'm not a priority I've never been one You don't un

Running Ink by dino12345610, literature

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Running Ink

Spin, spin, spin The world goes round I feel it move Deep underground It spins too fast I can't keep pace Running backwards To win the race Fingers clasped Between your own My true nature Has been shown No longer blinded She does see The truly vile Side of me But that sides not mine It comes from you Hold my breath Till I turn blue Can't bite my tongue No not much longer Clasp me tighter For you are stronger Hiding my tears You see them all You do not let me Slip or fall Through the sadness Through the pain We shall try To remain the same It may be stupid But we do stay Through brightest night And darkest da

Voices by dino12345610, literature

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Voices

The voices in my head Will sometimes play dead When I feel safe and sound They come back around Screaming while awake Telling me to fake And whispering in my sleep Burrowing too deep Truth and lies mix inside With whom can I try to confide? You turn to me with your ear But you don't actually even hear You're always talking to me But you truly cannot see The voices are so very loud My simple mind they do cloud Some are inclined to tell me yes At least that is the best guess Some are inclined tell me no Which way should I choose to go? Blood rushing and screaming terror Sadness with every single error Happy with unchosen p

What Becomes of Us by dino12345610, literature

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What Becomes of Us

Sitting here Amidst all these people I call them friends But the bond is feeble With one wrong word You become a threat Losing it all By placing a bet Some will hurt you And bruises appear Some will hurt you And insults you'll hear Disagree once And be outcast Hold your ground Friendliness is past But despite all this Love still thrives Affecting emotions And toying with lives We're always together As a family should Will we stay together? Do you believe we could? Some of us will stay Can't stop that But others will be Walked over as a mat Where do I stand? Who stands beside me? Should I just let you go? Should

Unsteady by dino12345610, literature

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Unsteady

The buzzing in my head Just seems too loud Like an entire shouting army And I'm lost in the crowd When will I be capable Of tuning out the voices? They talk and don't refrain Giving me too many choices I sleep and yet I'm sleepless I talk and yet I'm speechless What's with these contradictions? Like being happy and full of bleakness I cannot decide what to do You don't make things so clear My heart is still so fragile Cause I always hold you dear Maybe I'll think of a solution Get my mind set straight I better think of something For soon it'll be too late

A Nerd's Voice by dino12345610, literature

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A Nerd's Voice

I stayed up late For the midnight releasing The 360's content humming Is very much pleasing Modern Warfare 3 Just came out ya know With my AK-47 Down my enemies go Crysis 2 And Gears of War 3 All of these games Bring happiness to me Black Ops and Fallout Keep me happy for hours Marvel vs Capcom Gotta get me new powers Whatever the game Or whatever the system There's far too many For me to list 'em This is my niche My chunk of nerd To others it may Seem quite absurd But I'll forever play No matter what they say Waiting for the day Everyone is this way ;)

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Depression by dino12345610, literature

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Twelve Days in a Nerd's Christmas by dino12345610, literature

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Tattered by dino12345610, literature

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Tattered

Gone by dino12345610, literature

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Gone

Uncertainty by dino12345610, literature

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Uncertainty

Running Ink by dino12345610, literature

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Running Ink

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What Becomes of Us

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Unsteady

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A Nerd's Voice

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Work Break by dino12345610, literature

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Work Break

Clickety, clickety Type, type, type Sounds of the computer As I write out my life Katy and Kesha Sing out the tunes Pitbull and Eminem Rap out their blues Bouncing in my seat Wishing to dance To sing and twirl But people would glance Passing work hours In ways I shouldn't Money requires effort And I really wish it wouldn't Thoughts in my head For past, present, and future Stories and memories My favorite feature Off I go So I can share this break Look out world! For the decisions I make

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

July 9
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Deviant for 17 years
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I'm just a girl learning how to handle her adult status.

I love to write and draw but they happen sporadically. I still hope to hone my skills.

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FlyAwayMax

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AVP

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Madina Lake

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Fallout 3

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Xbox 360

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dino12345610

Apr 11, 2023

5 years from then... almost

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Oof. Forgot DeviantArt existed. So of course I had to yeet myself down the rabbit hole of teenage angst that is my page/journal. Oofta. No thanks. So here's a brief update, past self. You're now married, own a house, and are about to turn 29. 5 of your friends are hitting 30 this year and two are getting married (and one got married last year). You've driven the country a few times and yet still haven't touched California or the entire north eastern peninsula. And you're about to go to your 10th (11th, actually cause of some fuck ups) high school reunion. It's weird. And bringing up a lot of things. Also, past self, btw, you were depressed af. I'm sorry there was no help for you. There isn't help now, either, but we're getting there. Having an amazing husband and phenomenal support group does wonders. You've reached a weird place of self enlightenment where you understand all your issues and where they come from but still have to manage them on your own. Baby steps. A lot has

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dino12345610

Aug 31, 2017

And 3 Years From Then

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3 years after my last journal, here I am again. I did not delete my DA but I certainly haven't interacted with it much. At all. Let's be honest. I am now 23 and... I guess my life is more figured out than I would've ever imagined it would be. Don't get me wrong, my life is still a mess, but it's a manageable mess. I'm currently writing this from a full time job where I will soon be hired on officially (I'm a temp). I have my own apartment, two beautiful furbabies, and a new man in my life who doesn't make me feel like shit. I'm mere minutes away from my friends and my dad and I have a very busy life. In the span of 3 years I quit college, h

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dino12345610

Aug 14, 2014

Two Years Later....

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And I'm back. Not for anything important. It's 2:10am and I'm just finding reasons to stay awake. When I'm upset I don't like to sleep, it feels like I'm cheating. I should be upset. I shouldn't just fast-track to dawn and everything be okay when I wake up. So here I am. Two years later. Still sucking at life and wasting my time writing it down here. Turned 20. You know what changed? Absolutely nothing. Except now I can't pull off the "I'm still a kid" bs that I used to. Now I'm just a pathetic 20 year old failing at college, living with my dad, and holding down a minimum wage, part-time job. Yeah I've come so far in two years. I hate who I